Ambivalent? Well, yes and no
I knew the moment had arrived
For killing the past and coming back to life
I dunno why mood swings occur. Why depression suddenly hits you. Well root cause can be easily brought out, but you can be unaffected too right? I would like it if important things along with the mundane would not affect me at all. I'd rather be jaded than have these turbulent emotions.
I know that every year around this time, I feel awful. I yo-yo up and down on the same issue several times a year, but the first part of Sept is just weird for me. Awfully fond memories haunt me and I miss everything so much.
Well, yesterday, to the predictably sober mood that I had, a worse scenario was added. I basically flopped down some more. So I've figured out a solution though. Having arbit conversations with dear ol pals can help. It's a basic reaction and let me tell you it helps like hell. My slumpy mood was bygone before I knew it and everything was bright and blue again. Well I’m sure my resort to grab some alcohol had a little hand in it, but then again, I doubt it.
I think people are special. Well that’s a dumb thing to say, but they are. And what makes me yearn for contact is an unknown need. I guess most people have it, and some act upon it and others don’t.
I hate the fact that I can’t get emotions across like I’d like to. Well or that I can’t get across emotions like I’d like to as well. Anyways, all’s well that ends well eh?
For killing the past and coming back to life
I dunno why mood swings occur. Why depression suddenly hits you. Well root cause can be easily brought out, but you can be unaffected too right? I would like it if important things along with the mundane would not affect me at all. I'd rather be jaded than have these turbulent emotions.
I know that every year around this time, I feel awful. I yo-yo up and down on the same issue several times a year, but the first part of Sept is just weird for me. Awfully fond memories haunt me and I miss everything so much.
Well, yesterday, to the predictably sober mood that I had, a worse scenario was added. I basically flopped down some more. So I've figured out a solution though. Having arbit conversations with dear ol pals can help. It's a basic reaction and let me tell you it helps like hell. My slumpy mood was bygone before I knew it and everything was bright and blue again. Well I’m sure my resort to grab some alcohol had a little hand in it, but then again, I doubt it.
I think people are special. Well that’s a dumb thing to say, but they are. And what makes me yearn for contact is an unknown need. I guess most people have it, and some act upon it and others don’t.
I hate the fact that I can’t get emotions across like I’d like to. Well or that I can’t get across emotions like I’d like to as well. Anyways, all’s well that ends well eh?
posted by procrastinator at 12:16 PM
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I feel same way too sometimes, It depends on month, weather and sometimes,It likes as if I am in the valley, not valley, below sea level:)
Swapna
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